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My Princeling is staying at his friends house tonight. It’s weird you know. Even though he spends hours in his room gaming or whatever, I can feel his presence in the house. Just me, Mr C and Mr T tonight. I haven’t had an Indian in months so I dropped by the local and pickedContinue reading “Alone…”

20th August 2020. I came home and sat looking through all the songs I have learnt and know well. The Jimi ones were fun. I forgot I knew some of them. Wind Cries Mary, Hey Joe, Purple Haze and Foxy Lady. Oh… I just remembered. We used to play Fire in the band I wasContinue reading “Finally… Again… Part 2.”

20th August 2020. Exam results day today. Yet another poignant day. After the grading fiasco then the last minute U-turn, my Princeling has passed all of his GCSE’s after all. He is “Gassed”. Even if the world was still normal, today would have been emotional. Such a long slog, the last five years and nowContinue reading “Finally… Again…”

19th August 2020. My dear friend and newly adopted sister has said repeatedly that she thinks I would make a really good carer. As I said before, I laughed every time but after a long chat I decided, why not? I’ve tried so many things before, why block this just because it’s new. Weird givenContinue reading “Why do I care?”

18th August 2020. I have one question today… Where the hell has my storm gone? Not now… Just… Not now… Oh look, there it is… Going in the opposite direction… So today I am fighting the good fight in order to get things done. It’s taking the biggest effort to do anything. I think I’mContinue reading ““C’mon Thunder!…””

Got up at 9 yesterday. Finally getting into some kind of ‘normal’ sleeping pattern. Next steps were meeting at a local cafe at 10am. I honestly had no clue what to expect. I guess I kind of imagined a group of people all sat in a circle like an AA meeting! “Hello my name isContinue reading ““Next Steps.”…”

16th August 2020. So I’m sat in McDonald’s this time, taking advantage of the eat in to help out scheme. What a great way to tackle societal obesity. Well it works, I’m here having spent barely £3. Still can’t shake this new downer. Had a nap two days running. That never happens. I say newContinue reading “50% off…”

I just got a call from my Princeling to ask me to drop off his first proper cv. He says his friend got him a job in a burger place. I’m impressed. Everyone who starts in a working kitchen is basically a dogs body. Not what I expected from him. Honestly that takes a weightContinue reading “Phase 567.4. Complete…”

12th August 2020. So my gay best friend has a dangerous medical condition and he keeps putting off getting it seen to. His partner has been nagging him too so I gave him a bollocking this morning. On top of that, my dear friend and adopted sister might have the same thing after her tattoo.Continue reading “Like I said… ANYTHING ELSE?!…”

11th August 2020 It’s six months today that My Lady passed away. I’ve been intermittently blocking it yesterday and today. Six months… Really? So surreal. I met with the lady who runs the local performing arts academy for coffee today. My Lady ran the TV and film class at the weekend. I still had someContinue reading ““Pure bloody art, darling!””

10th August 2020. Back in Costa today. I thought it might be productive with work stuff. Everyone was queuing politely, when a pair of “ladies” just waltzed past the whole queue and started dragging the tables together. Wow. It really stressed me out. How I didn’t have a go at them I’ll never know. Jebus!Continue reading ““That’s it, you’ve said the words!””

9th August 2020 Sat in Costa again this lunchtime. Seems a good place for me to chill and write this drivel. I’m as near to genuinely relaxed here as I’ve been in quite a while. Strange, given that it reminds me of this poor guy who used to sit in the pub I used toContinue reading “Once more unto the breach dear friends, once more…”

8th August 2020. 4:57pm My Lady’s close friend and colleague Mrs White Sage is turning fifty in a few months and her daughter kindly asked me if I would like to contribute my favourite recipe to a recipe book she is making. I used to spend so much time in the kitchen. Even trained asContinue reading “And for my next trick…”

I got my first guitar when I was six and have been very much on and off with it throughout my life. I’ve done a few pub bands and plenty of pub gigs, but never took it anywhere other than that. The last time I truly felt my muse was when I was living onContinue reading “Hello old friend, where have you been all this time?”

8th August 2020: I‘m sat at the back in the local Costa on a Saturday lunchtime, watching the world carry on like nothing ever happened. My Lady passed away nearly six months ago now. Mental… Apart from the masks, things seem back to normal. Snotty unmasked kids, screaming and crying around the ankles of theContinue reading “Phase 567.2: Complete… The train for roundabout city is now arriving at…”

Sunday, August 2nd, 2020. I’m simply stunned. After everything, I genuinely believed that nothing could surprise me any more. Bam! A dear friend and “Work husband” as My Lady called him, has had to deal with a death close to home in the most tragic and horrific circumstances. It doesn’t matter how many times IContinue reading “How many fings???”

After being on compassionate leave for 6 weeks then furloughed for months, I had seriously got out of work mode. I was expecting to return to work on the 4 August. Then in our weekly online company meeting we are told redundancies will be happening. My managers perception of me is the old, beta, almostContinue reading “So long and thanks for all the fish…”

The coroners report came in this week. Next to nothing new was learned. The details of My Ladies passing do not need discussing here but suffice to say there were circumstances that if played differently, would have had a completely different outcome. The coroner has opened an inquest into the matter. Having never read oneContinue reading “And so it begins…”

So today we finally got to go for my Princelings birthday meal. Poignant yet again. We are both sitting here wondering what to talk about. Both trading small talks.

So I’m sat in my outhouse smoking, pondering what the fuck to do about life right now. My Princeling is still the filthy little teen he always was, just like every boy his age. The finance company for My Lady’s car have still not got rid of it. I’m tempted to call them and tellContinue reading “Outhouse blues…”