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So after what feels like a constant conveyer belt of health issues over the last year and a half, I ended up writing a letter to my doctor in the end. It’s seemed the best way of actually tackling all the various questions I have about my health. I’d never remember it all and thisContinue reading “MOT for me this time…”

I’m getting seriously bored with being triggered. This trigger was different however. Yesterday was a quiet, chilled day until around 4pm. Standing with my back to the roundabout that the vaccination centre is on, I hear a huge bang. I turn around to see a car that was being chased by the police has ploughedContinue reading “Triggered… Again…”

It’s Saturday afternoon and last night was a blast. Again. I’ve spent most of my day job searching for my Princeling and I. My CV was hopelessly out of date. I take a break to do some housework, so I tell Alexa to play my Spotify on random while I’m in the kitchen. The secondContinue reading “The Sun will only burn for you and I…”

It’s Thursday and I’m off work. Every now and then I get a background anxiety that slowly grows and grows until I can think of nothing else. I now realise that this is my mind kicking my arse to keep on top of things. Funny how you can train background processes. If only I wasContinue reading “The ‘Clam smuggler.’..”

So today is my granddaughters first birthday. Weird. Yet another event that hammers home how long it has been since I lost My Lady. I stopped by my old workplace this afternoon to see my dear friend and adopted brother. Unfortunately, Mr Angry came out with him. Dickhead. I still despise him. Fetid creature thatContinue reading “Things are getting “Interesting” again…..”

It’s Monday. Midsummers day. 13 years to the day that My Lady and I got hand fasted. It was Fathers day yesterday. Fathers day vibe has changed. It now feels like a sad day as for some reason it emphasises My Lady being gone. It’s my Granddaughters first birthday tomorrow. Three emotionally charged days inContinue reading “So mote it be… Again.”

So Friday has come at last. I had yesterday off and the rain held off all day, only to hammer down all day today so far. I was soaked before we even had our briefing this morning. Like I said, moist… Very moist. Having finished at 2pm today, I find myself in Costa once more.Continue reading “Today will be mostly… Moist…”

So, it’s happened again… My Aunt died yesterday. I found out this morning. I had not seen her in decades. I wasn’t close to her. I had no issue with her either. In fact I have some lovely childhood memories of trips to Guernsey to see her and several other family members. It was notContinue reading “And around we go… (Again).”

So for the first time in months, I’m sat in Costa blogging. The last few days have been strange. I missed a couple of doses of my antidepressants. I’ve not been in a good place since. Today particularly. I was supposed to be going to Lidl to do some shopping but on autopilot, I driveContinue reading “It’s been a while…”

Well, a lot has happened over the last few weeks. My hours at work have been cut back but not by too much. It was quite a concern for a while. The Headcases United track is done for my parts. I’m still waiting for the rest of the guys to get their photos done alongContinue reading “Cruise control…”

Well… Colour me amazed. A while ago, Mr Odin came up with the idea of the musicians in Subsclub creating a song together. He creates the drum track, sends it to me. I create my riffs and pass it on to the Buttermeister in Germany. He then passes it on to Mr Milky in Jordan.Continue reading “Headcases United.”

I’m not having a good day…I’ve been on a roller coaster all week. I’ve felt that simmering coming back for a while. I’ve been working at the vaccine centre for two months now. We have all got used to it and have pulled together well as a team to become quite efficient. After weeks andContinue reading “Life, the Universe, and Everything…”

So Friday has come again at last. I’m going to have one more go at dyeing my hair and then I’m going to leave it for a while. Once the hair is done, my Princeling and I settle to watch some TV and eat. We watch TV a lot more now. Having been a goodContinue reading “Yet more anniversaries…”

Well… What can I say? Interesting times… I’m still having the strangest feelings. My mind has been on full power for weeks now, trying to process the shifts in my head space. It’s difficult as I have felt different every morning for a few weeks now. I’m getting impatient to find out where this newContinue reading “The world turned purple…”

Well… What an interesting week. There’s been a shift in the Cosmos. After the events of last weekend, the Zoom fun, the long chats into the night, and discovering so many things in common, I’ve felt different ever since. The impact of it can’t be overstated. Ever since, I’ve felt something building. I’ve felt likeContinue reading “Catharsis…”

So the day finally came… One year to the day… I took the day off. Whether that was wise is debateable, but I really didn’t fancy standing in minus three conditions, pretending to be happy and friendly to the vaccinated. The day itself was bad, real bad. The first trigger actually came the night before,Continue reading “Today can go away now… I don’t like it very much…”

So after the shit show of my last job, the vaccine centre position is mine. It’s traffic/people marshalling but it’s so rewarding and it pays well. Standing for ten hours in the snow and -2/3c all day is less than pleasant but worth it. On my first day, I was warned not to speak toContinue reading “A momentous occasion…”

I’m sat in waiting room at the garage while they do my MOT test. I’m wound up so tight about it. Given my luck recently they will probably condemn it. The last thing I want is to have to get my bicycle together and start riding to work. Wherever work may be, when I getContinue reading “MOT time…”

Everything from now on marks the one year anniversary of our worst nightmare. To be accurate, at around 7pm tonight (26th). I remember it like it was yesterday. Sat in my car at lunchtime, I’ve kept it together so far apart from one moment. It’s not been a fun day. I’ve kept the maelstrom atContinue reading “So long and thanks for all the fish. Again…”

Yet again it’s been while since I’ve posted here. I’ve little energy for anything recently. How new. After having a chat with myself over the job thing, I have relaxed a little. Only thing is, it doesn’t matter how much I tell myself “I’m ok, I’m doing good”, that annoying background anxiety just won’t stopContinue reading ““Soul Tired”…”