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As ever it’s been a while since my last post. It’s been and interesting week or so. I’m still hardly drinking at all. I’m even developing an aversion to it. I opened one the other night, had a couple of sips then poured it away. I’m not even getting drunk on Friday nights now. ItContinue reading “Cheers!”

It would have been My Lady’s birthday today. She would have been 43. It’s still so surreal. So much has happened over the last two years or so. The pandemic, wars, war crimes, and climate catastrophes, none of which she knows anything about. I still remember clear as day how it felt queuing up toContinue reading ““Happy” birthday…”

Well, I had another fuck it moment yesterday. I merely mentioned that I was thinking about painting my nails black for the hell of it to Miss Catharsis in California the other day. Much like when I dyed my hair she got excited and said do it. So I grabbed some nail polish, remover andContinue reading “Paint it black…”

Wednesday. It’s nearly twenty degrees today. My mood is lifting still further. If I was at home I’d be topless in shorts by now. I’ve always said clothes are overrated in this weather. Work is becoming a lot easier now I’ve been there a month. A month… Already. Crazy how time flys sometimes. Ever sinceContinue reading “Warm fings”

Friday again at last. I’m double booked tonight. There’s a monthly social at my new workplace. I wasn’t going to miss it. It’ll be the best opportunity to get to know everyone. I’ll be leaving the car at work today. I’ll deal with collecting it tomorrow. Happy Hour is an hour early tonight as inContinue reading “Friday fings…”

Today my father and his partner came to visit. It’s the first time in a very long time. So much so, that I actually can’t remember when he was last here. Obviously I made sure the house was presentable. Can’t have guests in a skanky house. Of course, they turned up early this time. HooverContinue reading “Fings.”

I’ve said it many times. My Lady was the only person in my entire life that I trusted 100%. That’s not to say my closest can’t be trusted. The issue is with me not them. I guess I’ll be stuck with this vibe for the rest of my life. No one else would ever compare.Continue reading “Trust issues…”

It’s Sunday. Only it’s a proper Sunday. I’m off work. I’ve had the whole weekend off this week. The intention was to do my usual housework obsession and get some of the big jobs done. One of the fence panels blew out a couple of weeks ago and I only fixed it today. In usualContinue reading “Moving swiftly on…”

First day in my new job. It seems easy enough so far. Just memorising routines etc. Feedback at the end of the day was very positive. My trainer pulled me up on very little and seemed more than happy with my work so far. I definitely need another eye test though. It’s been a veryContinue reading “Day one.”

It’s Friday at last. An interesting one for sure. Storm Eunice has battered the South coast today. I’ve now lost three panes from my outhouse and even one of the new fence panels came out. Luckily it didn’t fly away and my neighbor and I are going to tag team it tomorrow. Saturday. That wasContinue reading “Errr”

So on Friday it was two years since My Lady passed away. The days leading up to it were rough. Being at home so much hasn’t helped. The day itself wasn’t as bad as I expected. I made a big effort to distract myself all day. Somewhat successfully it seems. I had a moment inContinue reading “Two years, part two…”

I nodded off after all last night. This morning I woke with an attitude on. Today I’m taking some me time. Sod what anyone else wants, other than Precious of course, being her birthday. No Dad’s Taxi, nothing. I’ll do us lunch and dinner but other than that, I’m off duty. It’s still cold outsideContinue reading “Me time.”

I can’t wrap my head around the idea that tomorrow it’ll have been two years since My Lady went into hospital, never to come out. Two… The triggers are all around me. It’s like I’ve been thrown back a year and a half emotionally. I’m sick of it already and the actual anniversary hasn’t evenContinue reading “Two years…”

Day four of five off work. I keep checking my work app to see if any more shifts have been cancelled. Pointless today, being Sunday of course. As long as I don’t drop below three shifts a week, it should be just about ok. It fast becoming apparent that the vaccine program is stalling. VeryContinue reading “The chink of pennies dropping…”

Well, it’s New Years eve. I have today and tomorrow off, then back to work. I’ve been hunting around for LFT tests all morning. None of the pharmacies have any, nor do they know when they will get more. I ordered some on the government website days ago. Sure, in any other situation I couldContinue reading “Happy new year… I guess.”

I’ve been given many more shifts at the Ding vaccination centre. The agency dealing with it also has the Bury centre on their books. Fortunately bread has been happy to facilitate my doing both jobs. Two jobs… Had it really come to this? It certainly had. With the Omicron variant turning up, the war cryContinue reading “The end of bread…”

Tuesday. My Sunday. I’m sat on the sofa again, feet up, back at this drivel again. I had my booster yesterday. I bumped into a couple of colleagues from the fire station while I was there which was nice. My arm hurts a lot more than the last two times. I’m feeling pretty rough. IContinue reading “Like a twisty, turney thing…”

Halloween… The 14th anniversary of My Lady’s and my civil wedding. I hate Halloween now. Don’t bant it. It’s the second anniversary without My Lady. Fortunately I’m at work today and the first few hours have been so mental, I’ve not had time to over think it. Same as most other shittyversaries, I don’t quiteContinue reading “14 years ago today…”

So… Friday has come again at last. I’m still working weekends and it’s really taken the edge of my happy Friday vibe. It’s the only real socialising I ever do. Just one decent evening/night a week. Not much to ask for is it? Well financially, it would seem it is. It sucks. Fingers crossed IContinue reading “To sleep, or not to sleep?”

Well, this depression is really kicking my arse at the moment. Couldn’t sleep last night and I’m really not in the mood for anyone’s crap. I definitely need to contact my GP. It’s getting worse. It’s still up and down/on and off but the average isn’t good. Saturday now. Last night was a banger. OnlyContinue reading “Miserable as f##k…”