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Due to my having the snip after my toxic marriage, My Lady and I couldn’t have kids. I’m sure we would have had a few otherwise. We decided to have fur babies instead. My Lady already had two cats, Mr S and the Darkest of Stars. We found a beautiful Irish Border Collie. He wasContinue reading “Mr C”

Well… A lot has happened since my last post. My Princeling is not living with me any more. I don’t feel the need to share the details here as, even though this blog is semi-anonymous, it wouldn’t be fair to share his situation. It’s not mine to share. Suffice to say it’s not been aContinue reading “‘Happy’ Christmas.”

Well, what a roller coaster of a few weeks it’s been. A couple of weeks ago I had a nasty crash on my bike on the way to work. A lucky escape to be honest. It could have been so much worse. Despite that, I found myself in A&E a couple of days later. MyContinue reading “Crashing round you.”

Sunday: I’m sat outside Costa waiting for my dear friend. I’d not heard from her in a month. To my surprise, I got a message from her out of the blue wishing me happy birthday on Thursday and asking about going for coffee. Without even thinking about it I said yes. I’ve missed her aContinue reading “Coffee ‘date’.”

Tuesday. There is definitely a pattern developing at work with my mood. The morning is usually ok. The odd laugh punctuating being busy. First break seems to take forever to come. After lunchtime my mood seems to start dipping. I usually take lunch at the back of the building with a few colleagues as weContinue reading “Still tangled up.”

So it’s Sunday evening. My father, eldest daughter and granddaughter came to visit today. I don’t see any of them very often, not having a car. My granddaughter started school this month. She was born the day after mid summers day 2020. I still remember clear as day meeting my daughter just before Christmas 2019Continue reading “The end.”

Well, it’s been nearly a month since I’ve heard from my dear friend. I sent one last text yesterday, but I’m not going to keep on flogging a dead horse. I just think it sucks not being told to get lost. I had a better day yesterday. I’ve stopped listening to the songs we sharedContinue reading “Ghost.”

So, today I got confirmation that my dear friend has resigned. I was told by another colleague. Finding out that way made me incandescent with rage. I was absolutely livid if not surprised. I sat fuming, cutting out LED’s by the hundred as work is quiet at the moment. The assistant manager came over andContinue reading “Here endeth the lesson.”

So yet again I find myself outside my local McDonald’s writing more of this drivel. I can actually afford it this time as Mr Screamer unexpectedly paid me for more songs. It’s been a hot and very humid day today. I just took a shower and came out to get some peace and to coolContinue reading “More reflection.”

Wow, two in as many hours. I hit publish on my last post, got up to leave and went straight back into McDonald’s to get a coffee on autopilot. I guess I still need to vent. Predictably, my Princeling wanted me to get something for him on the way home. I simply said “No. I’mContinue reading “Still not ideal…”

My antidepressants ran out at the beginning of last week. At least I think it was then. I completely lost track of time. I think it was at least five days without them. At the end of last week I kept waking up around four am. As ever I still lie there overthinking in bedContinue reading “Not ideal…”

Sunday. Interesting times again. I’m currently sat in the local woods contemplating my life. I was here yesterday too. It’s so peaceful here. No road noise, butterflies flitting around, dragonflies swooping down to say hi, then scooting off again. Grasshoppers chirping in the grass. I feel like big changes are afoot but I have noContinue reading “Reflection.”

I don’t know where to start today but I feel like writing to purge some stuff. Seems I’m not alone on that level tonight. One of my closest Headcase friends is going through stuff today too. We’ve been talking almost constantly for two days now. We find ourselves in a similar position. Trying to findContinue reading “Up and down like a yo yo.”

After a few weeks processing the three deaths that occurred recently, I find myself feeling ever more determined to make this life my own and screw what anyone else wants. My situation at home hasn’t really changed, but I’ve started the ball rolling. I told my Princeling that I’m not going to be his personalContinue reading “It never rains but it pours.”

Well, the Cosmos is being quite the fucker this week. I swear death sits on my shoulder like our demons do. At the end of last week I was at work and as the day progressed a migraine developed. I got to the point where I couldn’t see my work properly so I decided toContinue reading “Another three…”

So I’ve fallen ill just in time for Easter. What the hell? Four days off and I’m too sick to do anything. It’s Easter Sunday and I’ve spent the whole weekend either sleeping or being a zombie on the sofa reading the Edgar Allen Poe book my dear friend lent me. I had so muchContinue reading “Easter weekend.”

Saturday. Well it’s been an interesting week. Thursday and Friday were nothing short of delightful. A very special friend at work and I have been sharing music for some time but the end of this week, it ramped up big time. I scrolled back last night and found nearly thirty songs in our private chat.Continue reading “Good times. For once.”

Saturday. It’s been a pretty diabolical week. On Wednesday I was sitting at my pc, same as always, when all the lights went out. I thought a bulb had blown and tripped the circuit breaker. Then I hear the sound of water. I look down the hallway towards the front door and there was waterContinue reading “So now what?”

Tuesday. The last few days have been… “Interesting”. Last Friday my father sent me a photo of my Grandfather on my mothers side that my Aunt sent him. I’d never seen him before. I’ve never even known his full name until now. My Dad was talking to my Aunt and she told him the storyContinue reading “The Mother of all Sundays.”

So, yet another death to deal with. My half sister’s Nan. When I was a kid and my mother was with her dad, I used to see them every Saturday. My mother was an alcoholic for most of my life. When I would visit, I would watch them drinking and my step Nan would lookContinue reading “And another…”