Author Archives: Dukemoriarty

A couple of months ago, I started getting pins and needles in my forearm, ring finger and the left half of my hand. When in full emotional flow, I was getting a tight chest and even slight pains. Obviously these symptoms are not good and my family and friends told me straight, “Call the GP…Continue reading “Broken Heart Syndrome…”

May 14th 2020. 00:20 The trouble with trains is you never know when they are coming, the same rings true with grief. Just yesterday the emotional freight train hit me again just when I need to be strong and positive for my Princeling. I hate the way it just comes out of the blue afterContinue reading “Did I mention?… I hate trains!”

Thursday, April 30th 2020. It’s true you know. When people say “Keep yourself busy.”, the ONLY thing that keeps you from going utterly insane is distraction. My Lady and I always loved our garden. One of her favourite summer pastimes was watching me hoover the lawn with my top off while she sat in theContinue reading “Distraction…”

So I’m two and a half months in. Somehow I’m still alive. These have been the worst times of my life. I could never have even conceived of so much pain. Having spent nearly a month on Valium and now on antidepressants, some of the fog is clearing. One notable thing about these meds isContinue reading “The reality of it is…”

Everyone’s grief is different. Even before My Lady fell ill, I had been semi obsessing about our getting together. I had found our old emails from when we were courting and had put them together in a document called “The meeting of soulmates”. All I needed was to sneak a copy of her MySpace blogsContinue reading “Action replay…”