So now what?

Saturday.

It’s been a pretty diabolical week. On Wednesday I was sitting at my pc, same as always, when all the lights went out. I thought a bulb had blown and tripped the circuit breaker. Then I hear the sound of water. I look down the hallway towards the front door and there was water pouring from the light fitting.

Suffice to say, I was shocked. Given how often my Princeling has left the tap on in the upstairs bathroom, I knew that was why. Not only had he left the tap on, he had blocked the sink, hence the Niagra falls from the hallway light. I ran upstairs screaming at him. Bit by bit he is destroying my home.

Once I had dealt with the initial disaster, I felt a cold, calm feeling come over me. At first I wanted to drag him out of the house by his hair and chase him down the road. What do I have to do to get him to stop this bullshit? It doesn’t matter how many times I’ve told him about these matters, it keeps happening. Massive gas bills, water bills, holes in several doors, and probably damage to the floor and ceiling now too.

I’ve said it many times, but now I’ve fully disconnected from the emotions that have stopped me throwing him out already, the only thing that has stopped me so far is that I know damn well, when that conversation starts I’ll struggle to be reasonable about it. I’ve been going to bed ridiculously early every night since. I just don’t want to be around him at all anymore. I’ve always tried not to make a permanent decision based on a temporary emotional response, but now I’ve had time to calm down… I still want to live on my own.

This will be one of the hardest things I’ve done for a long time, but it has to happen. He has been bidding on places for him to move into but the system is rammed so there is a huge queue of bidders on every dwelling. I have also been looking for somewhere to swap to.

My Lady and I had always planned to move to Wiltshire later in life and her favourite place was Marlborough. In all these years on the homeswapper website, there has never been anywhere available for exchange there. The day after the above incident, one came up. Crazy.

The week before, we had been discussing moving home and what we both wanted eventually. He was concerned that I would move out of town and he wouldn’t have me to fall back on. At the time, I had not actually considered leaving town as I work here and I still don’t have a car. Now the thought of living elsewhere is very appealing. If I had a car I could do it if it wasn’t too far. A twenty or thirty minute drive would be quite acceptable.

So I’m sat in Costa at the Ham shops once again as I got paid today. The sun is shining and it’s quite warm too. I’m hoping that we get some consistent dry weather soon. I want to tackle the garden. I need to do something this weekend to make myself feel like I’m moving forward so it’s a shame the garden is soaked. There is plenty to do in the house though. It’s just a shame my Princeling is there. I’ve done zero housework since the flooding but I’ll get that done today.

I spent a few hours on Zoom with a couple of friends last night. I was up until gone 2am, but I woke up quite early. As ever, we had a nice deep chat about life, the Universe and everything. Both my friends were feeling better after having a shitty few weeks which was nice. My turn to vent.

I seem to have left a few drafts posts hanging around this month. The above was a month ago. 🤷‍♀️