Soul connection…

Isn’t it wonderfully strange how humans connect sometimes? One can be mooching along in life not looking for a deep connection of any kind, then one comes along, bang, out of the blue. It’s happened to me more than once and I’m as pleasantly surprised as ever every time. I’ve had and currently have many deep connections since meeting my Headcase family and they are indeed, soul connections but soul friendships.

Over the years, I’ve come to believe we have more than one soulmate and indeed more than one type. For some it’s a friend, others a sibling or parent. Then of course there is the soul partner. It’s this one that has me curious at the moment. How does one define it? Is it that feeling of meeting someone ‘again’ even though they’ve never met like My Lady and I had? Is it the connection of two souls with such a familiar understanding of the world and their view of it all that they feel totally at ease with each other to the point that they feel inexorably drawn to each other? Could it be a combination of the two? I can imagine there are several definitions but lets not dive too deep into that now, or I’ll be here all day.

Another question is, what’s the difference between a soul connection and a soulmate? Is there a difference? Does it even matter? So many questions with so few answers. How new. One thing I do know however is that I’ve missed a certain type of soul connection for a long time. I had no idea how much until recently.

I paused writing there for some time, as the act of writing those last few lines got me thinking a lot. Recent events have been feeding this gap in my soul and I’ve loved every second of it. I feel enriched, blessed even. Sharing the natural beauty of the world with someone is very special to me. These are the moments that burn themselves into the memory forever. The moments that are supposed to flash before your eyes before you die. Assuming of course that happens at all.

Take sunrises and sunsets for instance. How any human can not be moved by a beautiful sky is beyond me. Sharing the experience with someone who is as in awe of such things too is a beautiful thing. I shared a stunning sunset with a lovely soul only a week or two ago. The week before, we were leaving work and when we got outside we both got excited at a beautiful sky. It was an eye opener for sure. We walk the first mile or so together from work every day so we talked about hopefully catching a nice sunset on the way home. It’s the perfect time of year for it as at the time, the sun was setting around the time we finished work. Sure enough our time came. See for yourself.

We just couldn’t stop staring at it. It was moving for both of us. We both went our separate ways afterwards with a spring in our step. I was riding high on it all evening. My soul felt lighter than it had for years.

Interesting… As I finished that line, I look up at my clock as it turns midnight. It’s the day My Lady died, four years ago. The song ‘I Want To Break Free’ comes on at the same time. Oh, how the Cosmos likes to have it’s fun does it not? Curious… Despite the anniversary, I still feel happy, thinking about my new connection and the above sunset we shared. What a strange head space. Finally, after four years of turmoil, I feel I can actually move on with my life. Four years. I’ve changed so much in that time. Early on, just the words “move on” were disgusting to me, utterly offensive. I thought I would never get to a point where this wasn’t the case. Who knows how I’ll feel later today but I’ll take this win where I find it and given what the last anniversaries have been like, believe me… It’s a win. I’ve even stopped calling them shittyversaries.

Getting back to the point, if anything it reinforces the point, I still feel lighter than I have in years. I would be easy to let myself get carried away with this feeling with the inevitable comedown at some point but to be quite frank, I’d rather that than not have this feeling at all. I’m just enjoying it now and if it continues then that would be amazing. Whatever form it takes. Life is too short not to take some risks in life for the chance of happiness. There’s precious little of it for us all as it is.

I’m just grateful for the opportunity to connect with someone on a soul level finally. It seems the feeling is mutual which is uplifting to massively understate it. We both deserve some happiness.

Long may it continue. 🙂