Warm fings

Wednesday. It’s nearly twenty degrees today. My mood is lifting still further. If I was at home I’d be topless in shorts by now. I’ve always said clothes are overrated in this weather. Work is becoming a lot easier now I’ve been there a month. A month… Already. Crazy how time flys sometimes. Ever since My Lady died, my time perception has been screwed.

Just to prove the point, it’s now Friday at last. That flew by. I’m still depressed after all. Work is a great distraction. With one exception. Radio. Blinding light by The Weeknd came on I’ve not heard it for over a year and a half. If you didn’t know, Blinding Light was the song that played My Lady out at her funeral. How the hell I kept it together I don’t know. Fortunately, I could barely hear it and it was nearly finished when I realised.

So after another stupidly late Friday night with my musical compadre and the Headcases on Zoom, Saturday was a bit blurry. I drunk even more than last week. I need to ease up really. I nearly passed out in my PC chair. I still have two beers left but I had no interest in drinking them all weekend.

Yesterday was Mother’s Day. We hate all of these shittyversaries. My Princeling isn’t usually affected too much by anniversaries, but he was this time bless him. Usually he prefers to ignore them. Not this time.

We got through that just about. My Lady’s birthday is just under a week away. I think that will be hard for all of us. My Princeling is ever more aware of these dates it seems. Precious always was. Two years is just insane, still.

Monday. First job this morning was a circuit board for the Mercedes F1 team. I was left on my own to do it too. No pressure then! Given that I’ve been an F1 fan all my life, I was determined to make these boards perfect. I probably took too long on them but I don’t care. I wasn’t going to be potentially responsible for a car failure! Sure enough, they all came out spot on, thank the Gods.

I’m hoping I can get back on Fridays job today. Through hole soldering is so relaxing. Just pile me up and let me crack on. My soldering skills, while more than acceptable, need polishing. After a few chats with QC, I had it down. Even the smallest components were easy in the end.

It’s so nice work trusted me with the Mercedes boards. Any F1 team would place a lot of trust in any part supplier, for obvious reasons. All these years and I finally get to take part in the construction of an F1 car, even if it is only a little sensor board!

Tuesday. Another job to do on my own this morning. Work are trusting me more, bit by bit. I’m finally starting to relax a little here. I’m still simmering a little in the background though. All those regrets. All those mistakes that I’ve learned the lesson from in the hardest way possible. Lessons that I’ll take to my grave.