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It’s Friday at last. An interesting one for sure. Storm Eunice has battered the South coast today. I’ve now lost three panes from my outhouse and even one of the new fence panels came out. Luckily it didn’t fly away and my neighbor and I are going to tag team it tomorrow.

Saturday. That was the worst storm I’ve seen since I was a kid. The worst has past, but it’s still too windy to attempt refitting the fence panel. My Princeling and I have just returned from the shops. I’m feeling a bit sleepy now we’ve eaten. I bet you can guess where I’m sat as I type. Yep. Feet up on the sofa. How new.

In a way, today is my working Sunday. I have my one shift at the vaccination centre tomorrow and my first day in my new job the next day. I’m trying to mentally prepare.

Yesterday, I had a tidy up in my bedroom. I don’t have enough room for all my clothes now so I emptied My Lady’s sock drawer and used that. I bagged her stuff up and put it in the wardrobe. Weird. Why the wardrobe? Much as I need to be a little practical, just removing My Lady’s socks kept triggering me. It’s been two years and I still feel guilty about moving any of her things… Still. I guess I thought that if I put the bag in the wardrobe, I’m not removing it as such, merely rearranging it. I still kept looking at the photos in front of her ashes crying though. My Princeling has no idea what I was going through though. My ability to hide my grief is highly developed now. It’s had to be. Being around the public for the last year, I’d be no good if I kept wandering off for a cry. Sure enough, it happened several times over the year but it wasn’t enough to cause any issues.

I’m listening to the meditation playlist I created in the months following My Lady’s death. It still holds my mind in one state. Not the happiest of mind sets, but it levels out the peaks and troughs.

Yet another new situation with the new job. I feel like I’m on the eve of another new life. So many huge changes have happened in the last two years. This new job I start on Monday will be my sixth in that time. So many settings, so many different people. After so much change and uncertainty, it will be good to finally be able to predict my finances beyond the next few weeks. In theory I’ll be secure there as long as I don’t screw it up. Not likely as I can do this stuff in my sleep. I’ll just need a little practise. That doesn’t worry me in the slightest. My vaccination work situation sounds a bit more reliable even if it is only for the next month anyway.