Back to the grindstone…

So back to work this morning. They had a stock take at the weekend. Apparently no one thought it might be a good idea to actually record the audit. As a result we can’t touch anything yet they still want us in. 8 hours cleaning the same bench… I mean… What the actual? I’m not complaining but there’s no point my even being here. Whatever, I’m getting paid still.

At least I get to see the hospital every break. Drive the same route to work every day as the route I took to say goodbye (twice) to My Lady. Fun times.

I’m so glad to get the holiday period over with. I have enough reminders to deal with. The next six weeks are going to be hell. Precious’ birthday, happens to be the same day My Lady went into hospital. Two weeks after that it will be a year since My Lady passed away. 3 days later is Valentine’s Day. A few weeks after that, the anniversary of her funeral, then the very next day would have been our 14th anniversary of us getting together. What a bunch of crap.

Tuesday.

We have some work to do so I’m grateful for that. My new Italian friend at work and I had some good chats. He agreed to teach me some Italian. I always wanted to learn Italian. My Lady loved it when I sent sexy messages to her in Italian. Good ol’ google translate.

So last night, that disgusting creature Bojo announced another full national lockdown. Great. Back to March then. Only it isn’t. Most people are ignoring a lot of it. Despite my fears about work, I’m grateful they are not shutting down. I can’t afford not to work now.

I’m sat in the car having my lunch. I just can’t shift my despair over losing My Lady. I’m hiding it ok but I’m actually dying inside right now. I’m sick of it. I’m going to try and find the lock of My lady’s hair tonight. I put it away when I first got it but I can’t remember where I put the keepsake box. I just need to feel her in some way… Any way. Let’s see how my evening goes. Shit probably. Couldn’t sleep again last night, so I’ll need another early night. Every time I do, I miss the UN meetings I’ve had so much fun in.

I can never make my mind up if I should build up the days thoughts and publish at the end of the day.

I’ll post again later if I feel the need.