“Flogging a dead horse.”…

At the risk of being repetitive, how the hell can this year get any weirder? I had my interview for the domiciliary health worker job yesterday. They couldn’t get enough of me! Mental. I told them about my last year and how it had changed me. “Aww that’s lovely, you sound perfect!” I have a crap ton of training to do today. DBS check was only a few pounds too. So after an hour or so going through everything I came away feeling like I had smashed the interview out of the park. Quite a buzz I can tell you after my confidence has been smashed and battered by this years events. I’ve spent so long feeling like I’m flogging a dead horse with my job hunting. I was this close to giving up… But no… I am the storm, remember?

I spoke at length with Mrs Performing arts when I got home. She runs the local performing arts academy. My Lady used to run the film and TV class at the weekends. Another who thinks I would be good with kids/people enough that she is very keen to take me on board. Given that I’m already getting a DBS check for the care job that saves one job. Anyway I start a week on Saturday. What the bun? After so long not getting anywhere in my usual line of work too. I’ve always been a technical man. Everything I went for was either gone or was too far away. I won’t leave Mr C on his own all day. That’s really not fair. Throughout the entire time since I found out I was being laid off, every single enquiry in the care industry wasn’t blocked. Far from it. Not one single block. I have an offer of voluntary work at Mencap too. I couldn’t possibly do all the things I have available. Taken on two jobs in one day and even had to turn down the voluntary position !

The Cosmos is really having a ball with me eh? Devastating lows and soaring highs. Back to back and even simultaneously at times. How the hell is my brain still working!?

Forgot to bring my charger to Costa so my battery is about to die.

Finish this later…

So, I had my interview and a weeks full on training. So intense. I was doing it nearly all day every day all week. I did really well apparently. It was a good distraction from my turmoil. Pretty much as soon as I clicked the last answer on the last piece of the last online course, I just slumped in my chair and burst into tears. Almost a whole working week without a full blown break down. As ever, this always make it worse then they come along. All the paperwork is now in order, DBS check came through and I passed all my training and online courses. So by the end of the day, I’m all good to go. I’ll be going to the office Monday afternoon to collect my badge and uniform and go on a few shadowing visits. Wow… This really is happening!

After such an intense week and given my reaction when I finished, I decided to put the whole thing away and feed my soul for a bit. Lots of guitar philosophy from various stars then a few hours playing. Thought it was about time I got into scales after so many years. Given my interest in Steve Vai and the moment, I went straight to his favourites. The main one being the Lydian mode. As soon as you start playing in this mode, you can immediately hear his style and see why he likes it so much. It’s no wonder there is so much of it in his catalogue. I’m impressed at how he can make so much use of it without sounding repetitive.

I have a Covid test in the morning… I feel very strange about it, I don’t know why. I guess as my dear friend and newly adopted sister has had it and considering that we were never convinced My Lady didn’t have it… Must be yet another trigger.

Screw today, I’m going to bed to watch my usual acoustic happy hour with Rob from Machine head. Meh…