What the bun?…

23rd September 2020.

Well it’s been a while since my last blog. I can only assume that’s a good thing. Looking back, the worse I feel the more I blog. There’s no denying getting my thoughts down has given me a lot of insight into my journey. Who knew? They were right.

My headspace has been weird ever since my birthday. Of course it’s all relative as I’ve been weird as hell for many a year. It’s been a real mission keeping the job searching up. It’s gathering pace though. Fingers crossed.

I’ve been playing so much guitar lately. I’m so close to playing ALL of For the love of god by Steve Vai. That’s just downright crazy. I even impressed myself last night and I am my worst critic. I might even end up really good at this stuff! I’ve got to the point where I don’t even think about what comes next for most of it so I can just enjoy putting the emotion into it. I must start recording my practises. A Steve Vai tip that one. I have found so many Vai videos online. Masses of lessons and advice on being the best you can. What a legend. He even goes right into guitar philosophy and “connectedness”. Sounds funny but it works incredibly well. One thing I discovered when I started playing lots again was that all these years I’ve been putting way too much physical effort into my playing. I just relax and play much lighter. I get a better sound and its easier to play, especially the fast runs. All these years… If only I had found this out earlier. Another consequence of being self taught. Although to be fair, if I had the motivation I would have had this down years ago. Funnily enough only last week that was one of the most important tips in all of Steve Vai’s lessons. I played that song on repeat for over 5 hours yesterday.

So my dear friend and newly adopted sister has had a cold. Only she doesn’t. Confused? You will be. My newly adopted brother has it too. Work husband has had a cold. My Princeling has had a cold. I dropped by my old work to pick up a package that I accidentally got sent there. I spoke to my old boss for a mo and he has had a cold. His daughter has had a cold. Wherever I go I’ve heard about a cold going round like crazy. Schools, colleges, workplaces… Obviously it makes perfect sense. So many people have started mixing again when they went back to school and so on. On top of that there is a growing number of people that are so done with it all they genuinely don’t care any more. Even to the point they are prepared to risk spreading it just so they can have some freedom. Disgusting, I can’t bear it. I get the desperation for everyone to go back to our normal social selves, really I do. I mean… As you have read dear reader, I’ve been incredibly lonely. Not only because I lost my Soulmate, but lockdown, losing my job etc. We were a close bunch at my old workplace. I miss them still.

So anyway, IS it a cold? It might not be… So my newly adopted sister had to get a Covid test as one of her colleagues was tested positive and had to isolate at home as you would expect. Throughout, both have only had cold symptoms and still do. So after dragging it out for you, my newly adopted sister tested Covid positive… I mean… What the fuck!? Really? After everything, our circle actually has it? I’m actually in shock. My anxiety has gone off the scale. We haven’t seen them for over three weeks so we’re ok on that front.

So it looks like there are more symptoms we are not aware of or were not made aware of…