Finally… Again…

20th August 2020.

Exam results day today. Yet another poignant day. After the grading fiasco then the last minute U-turn, my Princeling has passed all of his GCSE’s after all. He is “Gassed”. Even if the world was still normal, today would have been emotional. Such a long slog, the last five years and now it’s done. My Lady would have been so proud. I keep swinging between being overjoyed at his results then crying my eyes out as My Lady isn’t here to see it. Such a heady mix.

My Princeling and I spent the morning together, repeatedly high five ing each other with the odd yelp. I just dropped him in town so he can celebrate with his pal’s just like I did on results day.

Given today’s significance, I was compelled to come to Costa yet again to blog about it. I haven’t let my Princeling see me cry today. The same thing is in the back of our minds though. We did talk about how Mum would be so proud, briefly. Not something either of us want to dwell on too much. Impossible for me though. Can’t shift it. I’m sure he feels the same.

So what to do now? Pathetic as it is, I’m glad to be shot of the Lothario work. I’ll follow up on the leads I had but I don’t have the energy to do as much as yesterday. I’m feeling creative today. I’ll finish cleaning when I get back and play some guitar. Since that night I had the crappy tone, I’ve not wanted to play. The thing is when trying to find the tone you want, any amp needs to be driven before it sounds right. My amp might not be big but it’s a monster in disguise. Rarely if ever do I get it past 2-3 on the distortion channel and 4-5 on the clean channel. Other than gigs of course! As I’m alone today and next door is at work, I’ll see if it’s an issue or just having the amp turned up to < 1 in the evenings. I fancy playing a bit of Jimi today. Already know a few so nail those down. Trouble is, I’ve started learning so many pieces, I’ve completed next to none of them. I could potentially practise for over 4 hours and not repeat anything. If only I could sing and play at the same time. Ok I can on a couple but that’s it. Think I might get some singing lessons one day. Another cathartic process. Singing at the top of your voice.

Oh well, I’m going home. I’ll end up sat here until I have to pick up my Princeling. May add to this later. Not sure if I should publish the first bit then update through the day.

Laters…