Why do I care?

19th August 2020.

My dear friend and newly adopted sister has said repeatedly that she thinks I would make a really good carer. As I said before, I laughed every time but after a long chat I decided, why not? I’ve tried so many things before, why block this just because it’s new. Weird given the mental block on the Lothario work. I think it’s because it’s so far out of the box I have nothing to lose. Who knows? I have spoken to a few care providers and they all seem to think I am a good fit. Currently waiting on a call from the local Mencap. Funny… I had intended to do some charity work of some sort going forward. I still do. But, rudderless as I am, I have no clue what caring role is for me. Just crack on and try them I guess. I have a couple of months to explore this. Mencap provide full training… Interesting…

Made further calls to care providers today along with several technical recruiters. The hardest thing is figuring out what to go for. I’ve turned my hand to so many things in my working life. Lots of good transferable skills but no career until my last job.

So I had plenty of good feedback about moving into caring. I won’t lie, every time I got a positive feedback I laughed so hard after every time. Who knew? Me as a carer. Amazing what happens when you actually open your mind to any possibility. I have no idea if it’s for me but I’m going to try a few things while I have a little time. I’m thankful for the kick up the butt I received from my dear friend and newly adopted sister last night. I need to analyse the mental block about the Lothario work. Regardless of whether or not it was completely self inflicted, the fact remains my mind has been freed up. I’ve done more job search work in four or five hours today than I have in the last month. Annoying.

So… Remember me saying how I’m happy to scream “Anything else!!??” at the Cosmos? Well maybe I spoke too soon… And for the top prize tonight…? One stolen Princelings bicycle… I actually did scream this time. Not at him I might add. I know of countless teenagers that dumped their bike when diving in the loo while they were out, only to come out and have to walk home. My best friend at school had his stolen when it was a few days old!

I was trying to avoid coming out to Costa again just to blog but the bike thing… Luckily I have lots of points on my app so it’s free today. No grief spend guilt.

Finish this later …

So yet another “Interesting” day. Joy… I must learn to take the positives out of every situation… So easy! I’m struggling to process today’s events. Given the constant, relentless upheaval this year, this is just another one. At least this one is positive. That alone feels new. I mean… C’mon. Do I not deserve a break? Have I not paid my tab up front and more? I don’t expect anything in this life to fall into my lap but it’s so exhausting keeping this up. I say this every day, thinking about it. But I’m still here plugging away. It feels like I’m flogging a dead horse half the time.

I’m quite mentally tired now, yet my mind is still craving something… Once I pick up my Princeling, I’ll figure that out. Maybe a race or two. Once he is in bed. The Skip Barber Championship on IRacing is at Circuit Gilles Villeneuve in Canada. One of the old F1 tracks loved by all racing fans and one of my favourites.

Exam results day tomorrow. Bless him, it’s been a long road to this day and our whole world exploded this year too so we have no clue what will happen tomorrow.