“That’s it, you’ve said the words!”

10th August 2020.

Back in Costa today. I thought it might be productive with work stuff. Everyone was queuing politely, when a pair of “ladies” just waltzed past the whole queue and started dragging the tables together. Wow. It really stressed me out. How I didn’t have a go at them I’ll never know. Jebus! So I set the laptop up, then remember I’m outside with no connection. Ok hotspot it is. Phone decides to have a fit and won’t connect. Ok, usb then… Nope. Reboot phone… Yaaaaaassss!!!! 3 minutes and I’m out of data… Aarrrgggghhhh!!!!! I’m actually in a headset where I can crack on with work and I’m getting thwarted at every turn.

My dear reader… Why does the Cosmos taunt me so?

Evening now. I’ve spent most of the time today going through more content for the client, sat in my swimmers, my huge floor fan going full chat and I’m dripping with sweat. I ran my head under the cold tap twice and had two cold showers so far!!

I’m finding this whole social media research a little frustrating. I think maybe because I’m of the last generation that didn’t grow up with the internet and social media particularly. It’s not intuitive for me. I mean why the hell would you need to hashtag the word “our” in “see our latest offers” ??? It’s painfully slow and really hard to get into with this latest downer I’ve been on. All I really want to do is listen to depressing songs or play the guitar. All well and good but not conducive to creating a whole new life for ourselves. I’ve worn many different hats in my working life but it’s been over 4 years since I started something completely new to me.

At the risk of sounding repetitive, Anything else!!?????

I mean… What the actual? One thing after another after another. Lost my step mum November 2017, mother in law last August, my mother a month later, the cat two days before Christmas, Precious gets hit by a motor bike in January (she’s ok) I lose my soulmate in February and my job in July. Like I said, ANYTHING ELSE??!!

So I’m now sitting in the garden in my (2nd) pair of swimmers. I smell divine. Mr C and Mr T are both hassling to be fed. You could feed them a battleship directly from the barbecue and they would still want their food in a bowl at dinner time.

Last smoke before bed. Spent the last couple of hours learning the solo to Tash Sultana’s “Notion”. If ever there was a piece of guitar to learn in My Ladies memory, this is it. I’ll learn the whole song but that solo… Go listen to the song when you’ve finished reading. You won’t regret it.

So here we are at the end of another mental day. How the hell I don’t just go pop and start having seizures again, I really don’t know. At least it’s cooled down now. I might get some decent sleep. Meeting My Lady’s colleague for coffee tomorrow to give her the remaining equipment My Lady has… had. Still doing the present tense thing. Will be nice to sit and chat with someone. I get very lonely… I feel socially awkward even more now. I’m used to having no filter and getting away with it. Mr C and Mr T aren’t exactly going to take offence at my lack of etiquette!

So good riddance to today. May tomorrow not be quite such an arse… So mote it be…