The reality of it is…

So I’m two and a half months in. Somehow I’m still alive. These have been the worst times of my life. I could never have even conceived of so much pain. Having spent nearly a month on Valium and now on antidepressants, some of the fog is clearing. One notable thing about these meds is that they can make you feel worse before you feel better. This has turned out to be a roller coaster ride this last week. Even now I flip between shock and denial. ‘How can this be real? It makes no sense’.